14.

i miss you so much but i can't talk to you.

i want to text you so much but i can't.

i want to see you so much yet i can"t.

all i got is our photo.

I MISS YOU.

13

heartwrenching feeling again. haix. this should stop. i know you're special, i know how much i want to be with you. and i know how much it hurts when you do otherwise.

i'll never be the first person to you turn to in times of need, the first person you run to at the end of the day to talk about how the day went, the first person you confide in. but i never asked to be the first, all i ask is just that you do all this to me.

i tried very hard to give you the best, i tried very hard to give you encouragement when you need it. i tried very hard to squeeze time out of my schedule to do things for you. i tried so hard but yet rejection comes easy. you said im your bestest best friend in hall, but is that really the case? you said you'll cherish me from the bottom of your heart but do you really mean it? somehow i feel like im being treated like dirt, like a ball, always being kicked around.

im really hurt. really.

12.

everyone got their dream girl/guy/job/home/car/GRADES etc. but dreams are dreams. they don't come true. so what's the point of dreaming of stuff? they'll never be yours.

11.

alcohol. back in my life. torrid week. ignore me. gone for good. eat shit. good game.

10.

what would it take for you to notice someone like me?